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dielloFirst of all, Happy birthday Charles!
So what have I done... I've updated [my site], and [Ross's site]. Nothing crazy to report there. I'm still planning on changing up my site a little bit, but I'm not yet sure how. I forgot to stick my jewelry gallery there, but it needs reworking. I also want to put a BJD page up, maybe. And I'm vowing to keep up with Ross's site better than I have, because updating takes a while when I let his stuff pile up.
I went to see a movie with Ron, but I forgot which one (I think it was Wolf of Wall Street, and my review is [here]). Really am in love with that site [Letterboxd], but I wish I had more friends who used it (see a movie? rate and review it!). I also saw Thor 2 [damn fine] and Kill Your Darlings [OMG OMG OMG]. As for other movies, I've been catching up on my netflix queue, and I also watched the Heman/Shera movie for a podcast (that had been put off for a month). Oh, and since the Blockbuster down the street closed down, I picked up some movies for Ross... and watched them. I'm not proud of it, but two of them were Twilight movies.
I attended a really nice dinner party with my friends Kathy (host), Brendan, Brigid, Meagan, Scott, and JC. Kathy made an amazing feast, and we gorged ourselves as we drank cherry mimosas and mulled pear cider. Such a perfect, hearty way to enjoy a frozen evening.
I managed to piss off Charles's entire family in one fell swoop. Although I attended one event that I don't usually attend with them, I did not attend two dinner parties - one of which I did not even know I was invited, and the other was a preemptive strike on my part (I avoid parties held at home, for they swing long into the night, and I am too old and too depressed to handle that). That didn't go well. But OH well. I'm not dating THEM. However, I do enjoy Jeff's company, and invite him over as much as he likes. I feel really bad because the last couple of times he came over, he was acting very silly to try to get me to laugh, but I wasn't receptive of it because my depression was bearing down on me THAT hard (I usually love when he gets us riled up with his antics, but I could hardly even smile).
And speaking of depression, it's hit me very hard this month, and has been highly encouraged by my ovulation (every other month, when the right ovary takes its turn, it causes pain), and subsequent PMS. This causes me to believe that my depression may be [PMDD]. But it could also just be severe depression, or I may be bipolar. I'm just guessing here. I almost want to rule out [SAD] because it seems constant (except when I feel bipolar due to a sudden good mood and then bawling my eyes out later). Then again, I sure do feel it when I haven't had any sun (then again again, those are all symptoms of PMDD, so... doctor). I really hate this, and I hate not having insurance to get myself to a doctor. This will be my February goal (along with straightening out whatever bullshit my student loans are doing), since I will have a weekday off every week. I am butting heads with my best friend (he calls it a tug-of-war, which is an even better analogy), and it's taking a terrible toll on us both and putting the worst strain on our relationship, which Ross assures me is not in jeopardy <3 . Still... I have admitted this month that I need help. I need to be put on medication. Because not wanting to be alive anymore sucks.
What else... oh yeah. [MURDER].
February plans include going to Ron's house for his birthday (and for the Olympic opening ceremonies). Possibly a Burlesque show. Possibly a Red Ball. Lifting free-weights (got a barbell!!). Figuring out how I can see La Mecanique du Coeur. Continuing with [VWNCC] prep, and being fully fucking prepared for it!
Also, over on my [twitter], I've been posting a picture a day of the things I make (primarily jewelry things this month, but a couple drawings) under the hashtag 'CreateEveryDay' as part of my new year's rez to create something every day.
So what have I done... I've updated [my site], and [Ross's site]. Nothing crazy to report there. I'm still planning on changing up my site a little bit, but I'm not yet sure how. I forgot to stick my jewelry gallery there, but it needs reworking. I also want to put a BJD page up, maybe. And I'm vowing to keep up with Ross's site better than I have, because updating takes a while when I let his stuff pile up.
I went to see a movie with Ron, but I forgot which one (I think it was Wolf of Wall Street, and my review is [here]). Really am in love with that site [Letterboxd], but I wish I had more friends who used it (see a movie? rate and review it!). I also saw Thor 2 [damn fine] and Kill Your Darlings [OMG OMG OMG]. As for other movies, I've been catching up on my netflix queue, and I also watched the Heman/Shera movie for a podcast (that had been put off for a month). Oh, and since the Blockbuster down the street closed down, I picked up some movies for Ross... and watched them. I'm not proud of it, but two of them were Twilight movies.
I attended a really nice dinner party with my friends Kathy (host), Brendan, Brigid, Meagan, Scott, and JC. Kathy made an amazing feast, and we gorged ourselves as we drank cherry mimosas and mulled pear cider. Such a perfect, hearty way to enjoy a frozen evening.
I managed to piss off Charles's entire family in one fell swoop. Although I attended one event that I don't usually attend with them, I did not attend two dinner parties - one of which I did not even know I was invited, and the other was a preemptive strike on my part (I avoid parties held at home, for they swing long into the night, and I am too old and too depressed to handle that). That didn't go well. But OH well. I'm not dating THEM. However, I do enjoy Jeff's company, and invite him over as much as he likes. I feel really bad because the last couple of times he came over, he was acting very silly to try to get me to laugh, but I wasn't receptive of it because my depression was bearing down on me THAT hard (I usually love when he gets us riled up with his antics, but I could hardly even smile).
And speaking of depression, it's hit me very hard this month, and has been highly encouraged by my ovulation (every other month, when the right ovary takes its turn, it causes pain), and subsequent PMS. This causes me to believe that my depression may be [PMDD]. But it could also just be severe depression, or I may be bipolar. I'm just guessing here. I almost want to rule out [SAD] because it seems constant (except when I feel bipolar due to a sudden good mood and then bawling my eyes out later). Then again, I sure do feel it when I haven't had any sun (then again again, those are all symptoms of PMDD, so... doctor). I really hate this, and I hate not having insurance to get myself to a doctor. This will be my February goal (along with straightening out whatever bullshit my student loans are doing), since I will have a weekday off every week. I am butting heads with my best friend (he calls it a tug-of-war, which is an even better analogy), and it's taking a terrible toll on us both and putting the worst strain on our relationship, which Ross assures me is not in jeopardy <3 . Still... I have admitted this month that I need help. I need to be put on medication. Because not wanting to be alive anymore sucks.
What else... oh yeah. [MURDER].
February plans include going to Ron's house for his birthday (and for the Olympic opening ceremonies). Possibly a Burlesque show. Possibly a Red Ball. Lifting free-weights (got a barbell!!). Figuring out how I can see La Mecanique du Coeur. Continuing with [VWNCC] prep, and being fully fucking prepared for it!
Also, over on my [twitter], I've been posting a picture a day of the things I make (primarily jewelry things this month, but a couple drawings) under the hashtag 'CreateEveryDay' as part of my new year's rez to create something every day.
